Summer 2012: First House Show / Party
At the age of 17, I hosted my first big house party that sparked the idea for me to pursue hosting future events. It began as the idea to host a massive summer party at my house. I had a huge yard and pool with very few neighbors nearby, so I thought it would be fun. During high school, I didn’t have many friends so neither me or my parents figured it would be a big thing. I was contacted by a guy Devon in a band called Your Last Descent to play it, so my parents agreed to letting them play as well as other bands and a dj that contacted me to play. With everything set up, it was an all ages event which was the usual for shows with bands playing in the music scene. As the night started to conclude everyone was coming up to me saying it was a blast and I should do a annual party called “Palmerfest”.
Summer 2013: Palmerfest (2nd House Show / Party)
In 2013, at the age of 18, I had a follow up “Palmerfest” set up for August 24th, 2013. Both of my parents agreed to let me have it if I did yardwork and had good grades. About a week or two before the event, my step mom decided to not let me have it. It caught me off guard and I was trying to find another location for it. So a guy named Mikey that I recently became friends with said I could have it at his house down the street in Crownsville. With successfully moving the event location to his house, I got everything set up and organized. A friend that was in one of the bands playing, Tyler S, had agreed to run sound for the bands playing. Midway through the sets he disappeared. I couldn’t find him and eventually I walked inside the house to find him making out with a girl named Katie. She was 14 at the time and he was in his mid 20’s. I started to cuss him out over that and went back outside mad. My girlfriend at the time, Kelsey K came and stayed nearly the entire event. She knew I was upset. Me and her had been having relationship issues, so as the event became more busy she asked me to “sneak off to have sex” to calm me down. I told her I had to manage the show and check in guests to keep track of everyone. She got mad and I told her we could do that later on but she walked off. Eventually I found her making out with my friend at the time, Adam W, and it made me mad obviously. I told her to leave. She called her mom and left. Eventually cars started coming in groups filled with people and we had to shut it down due to there being nearly 600 people there.
Summer 2014: Rage Festival (3rd House Show / Party)
In 2014 I had my annual party planned again, but I wanted to give it a cooler brand name so that people knew about my events and would talk about them. So the result of that led to the third “Palmerfest” eventually renamed to “RageFestival” as I had created a event hosting company page on Facebook named “RageFest House Parties”. This one was on June 14th and having had bought all of the food and drinks out of pocket to provide to the guests at previous events I decided to try and charge a fee at this one, which people came and ignored it. This one I had set up multiple stage areas for bands, acoustic sets, and djs. Unfortunately this was the final house party that my parents allowed me to have at my house.
2014: Chloe S
Early in 2013 a girl named Chloe S had messaged me “Why does everyone hate you so much”, and truth is after that first party I became a crappy person. I got my head filled with thinking highly of myself due to finally feeling important after the events success, which was a feeling I never got to experience during the entire time of my life. From being bullied in school for years, or to dealing with my step mom putting me down or her treating my siblings differently & creating massive tension between me and my dad. I felt like I could hit on any girl or say whatever I wanted without consequence, and I just became full of myself and a completely different person. I treated friends I made differently or used them, also I started drinking and going downhill with the person I was becoming due to all the depression I was under after being bullied and dealing with issues at home. Sexting, drinking, and partying became a escape and I had no remorse for others or took anyone's feelings into consideration. I did anything to make me feel alive and happy, which a majority of those things were a major chain of self destructive behaviors. Eventually me and Chloe started talking more & flirted some up until I sent her nude photos of myself which got screenshot and shared around the local metal scene in Maryland. I was 18 at the time and she told me she was 16, so I didn’t think anything was wrong by me sending it having a 2 year difference. Eventually she apologized and we talked afterwards as friends but the damage was done at that point and I had a private photo of me being spread around. We stayed talking after that and she asked if I was 18 or 19, which I told her I was 19 after my birthday and she told me she was 18 later on after those things occurred. After everything happened there was people telling everyone I sent nudes to someone “young”. After my first big party there was drama circulating around with me involved. And I was HIGHLY immature at 17–18 especially. So I pissed a lot of people off within the local metal scene there in Maryland, especially after Chloe shared my picture around it felt like my life got ruined from that point forward. Chloe passed away a few years later sadly. Other various statements in the Be Scofield article stated that I had sent or asked for nudes from women that were 14–17 when I was 18–20. There was truth to this statement, I’m not writing this claiming to be a innocent angel. I’m writing it to get the truth out, and the truth is while I was younger I 100% exhibited the wrong behavior out of being hormonal and not knowing how to treat or talk to women correctly, also not knowing that even after being 18 a small age gap was a bad thing. Eventually after being cheated on constantly and being loyal to whoever I was with it ended up making me lose myself and how I was whenever engaging women. I was asking for nudes from any girl that looked attractive to seek gratification and feel wanted after being wronged so many times during relationships. Ultimately there was a thrill to showing off my body to try and get a sense of empowerment whenever they said I looked good nude. Originally when I entered highschool as a freshman there was seniors that were 18 and 19 dating and flirting sexually with freshman that were 14. I assumed that there wasn’t anything wrong with flirting or being sexual to girls that age when I gotten older like the seniors due to there being no backlash to what they was doing. Eventually after my first party in 2012 when I was single again I was very sexual, and I messed up a lot of friendships from how I acted.
