January 12th, 2017

After working with my dad for years doing bathroom resurfacing, he experienced a massive heart attack while we was on a job site one day. He started to throw up after we left and also the following day. Me, him and our family figured it was food poisoning because we had breakfast that day he began to throw up. Eventually, my step mom took him to the hospital and called later telling me he had a massive heart attack and they was going to need to do immediate open heart surgery. So I went to go see him and talked before he had his surgery, but he passed away shortly after from his organs shutting down. After that I pretty much secluded myself in a dark depression and my family at home wasn’t comforting at all (step mom, brother, and sister). My cousin in North Carolina offered to let me move there after my court case concluded in May, and I accepted because I was feeling alone and suicidal plus I was extremely close to him & my aunt. As it was about time for me to move, my step mom talked to me in the kitchen one day asking if I was “on my phone looking for a job” and I told her no that I was on Facebook and it would be pointless to apply for a short lived job when I was moving in 2 weeks. She then tells me “This is why you stress me out so much because you never listen, and now your dad is dead now because you stressed him out so much”. Later that night I tried to commit suicide by taking a bunch of pills. The next day I woke up, and decided to go see a therapist. I was told that I had anxiety, depression, and found out that I have autism also which my whole family thought I had ADHD since I was a kid. And at the time, that made me feel embarrassed knowing I had autism so I kept it to myself. And even years later I've opened up better about having it but still bothers me feeling like I would get judged for having it. Eventually in the following weeks I moved after my final court date. My stepmom also created a Gofundme after my dad passed away using a photo of just my brother & sister in the photo with him, promoting it as a “future college fund” for us. She knew I wasn’t going to college, excluded me from the photo, but included me in the information in the post. People in Maryland tried to say “We ran him out” or that “He moved to hide and start creeping on women in a new state” but that was everything but the truth, I moved to North Carolina cause my family that mattered was there, my aunt also had a heart attack after my dads and I couldn’t live with myself if something happened and I lived 6 hours away. And also living in a hollow home with my dads memories but also my step mom would have led me to killing myself with the mindset I was in.